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Healing is messy…
July 12, 2026 The affirmation that sparked this blog post- “I’m not healed and I’m not broken. I am somewhere honest and in between.” Not everyone is willing to face their shadows. Not everyone is willing to deep dive into their trauma, feel it all again and then find a way to reconcile with it…
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Late Night Musings-
July 10, 2026 2:04 am I tried to get some sleep tonight, but it’s just not happening. My nerves are still zapping me, but with less intensity than yesterday. So here I am starting another blog. If you asked younger me what I wanted to be when I grew up, the answer would have been-…
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Changes are coming
July 9, 2026 6 am CST I did not intend for today to start off with an Adele song making me cry, but here we are. I may write a blog about that at a later date, but this is to be the blog I promised about what happened yesterday to make me sick. Fair…
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The hybrid beast concept
July 4/5, 2026 That is not a reference to the song, as the lyrics are a bit… confrontationally direct and angry. The bridge is the only mellow, not confrontational part, more like survival advice. And for the rest of my life I will pronounce chimera the Japanese way (key may rah). Hybrid Beast is a…
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Update June 29, 2026
I got Texas purged from my computer and all the remnants of things I brought with me are gone. My bestie and her husband helped me get rid of those things. Eventually I may be able to blog about my beloved pets who are all gone now, but I don’t know. Theirs are the only…
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Purging my life and my computer…
June 25, 2026 5:44 pm I have to add a trigger warning- there is talk of abuse beyond what I have mentioned before. Not explicit details but enough so that I felt a warning was needed. Just in case. I finally feel ready to do it. I am going to go through all of the…
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Unanswered questions everywhere
至る所に未解決の疑問が散らばっている June 24, 2026 3:03 pm 2026年6月24日 午後3時03分 I am feeling a bit “airheaded” after the canvas I did yesterday. It’s the first painting I’ve done since February when I did the “angry blue hand print” canvas. So I’m sorry if this blog post has no direction. I am an air sign. 昨日描いたキャンバスのせいで、ちょっと「ぼんやり」した気分です。2月に「怒りの青い手形」のキャンバスを描いて以来、初めて描いた絵なんです。だから、このブログ記事がまとまりのない内容になっていたらごめんなさい。私は風星座なんです。 Patience has…
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Dreams have meaning
June 19, 2026 Two nights ago, I had a dream that I actually remembered. It’s so rare for me that I’ve only had that happen about half a dozen times in the last few years. I was violently awakened from the dream, I don’t know why. But my head was pounding and felt like it…
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The Awakened One
June 16, 2026 to June 18, 2026 This one took me two days and a lot of energy to write. I almost didn’t post it now, was going to save it for later. Hide it away a little longer and keep it safe. Protecting myself. But I am done with that. There is no reason…
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Frustrated with my brain a blog
自分の頭脳にうんざりして、ブログ June 14, 2026 2026年6月14日 Do you know how hard it is for someone like me to realize their brain no longer works efficiently? I’m a Gemini- we are smart communicators who love learning because we retain it and use it. I have always loved learning so much so that my motto used to be-…